Monday, September 26, 2022

Give me a Hill to Stand On

It took an event of some significance to rouse Morethek’s attention from their work.

The endless pages of knowledge that the adept was tasked to painstakingly translate and transcribe required flawless attention, immaculate accuracy, and the most delicate of hands. Hours, often days, would pass at a time before Morethek found cause to look up from their work. 

So it was that the red folds of the adept’s robe did not so much as shuffle when Berlewen returned from her errand with a thud of the great library doors, and came striding down the aisle between shelves, boots sending echoing clicks through the immense room. 


Arriving at her assigned place opposite Morethek, Berlewen placed her new texts down on the table across from her fellow scribe. Morethek absently waited for the sound of the adept taking her place, for their work to resume. 


The sound did not come. Berlewen continued to stand in barely contained silence above her station. Finally, it was impossible for Morethek not to send a brief glance across the table at her. 


Berlewen returned the look from beneath her cowl, her expression contemplative. Morethek’s face was partially obscured by the workings of their implanted eye, but the slow raise of one eyebrow spoke lengths in curiosity from the usually stoic adept. 


‘News, sister?’ Morethek asked. One mechanical hand folded a completed text closed, immediately reaching for the next. 

Berlewen breathed out, as if steeling herself for what she was to announce. 

‘The Fabricator-General has declared for the Warmaster.’ 

Morethek held the next text in stillness. 

‘Possibility for error?’ 

Berlewen pulled her seat out, and swiftly slipped into it, excitement touching her voice. 

‘None. Confirmed accurate.’ 

There was a moment of silence then, as Morethek attempted to resume their work. Text opened, eyes darting. 


Among the most diligently skilled of all Mechanicum adepts, Morethek was not familiar with distraction. It seemed now though that the information before them was blurry, meaningless. Morethek looked up from their work once more. 

‘This choice will mean war. This will lead to destruction.’ 

‘All freedoms are bought with blood, this was inevitable.’ 

Morethak’s cybernetic implant whirred, searching their companion’s expression. 

‘Sister, the Emperor brought us order, and structure and so, so much more. He is absolute, to deny him is nonsensical.’ 

Berlewen frowned, confused. 

‘No… no, you mistake order for control, you’ve been lied to my friend, like so many others. His chains are not hung for us to climb higher on, they are to bind us lower in place. Allowing him and those like him to shit on us from ever greater heights. This war will mean freedom for all of us.’ 


Morethak placed their hands on the table before them, the meticulous work upon it forgotten.

‘That is purely conjecture, supposition. I do not deal in opinions or conjecture, sister. I deal in knowledge, and knowledge is absolute.’ 

‘And knowledge is what the Warmaster will bring us! The shackles will be removed, our access to information unseen, the secrets of ages, ours! He will allow us to open the vaults, Morethek.’

‘Knowledge is hidden for a reason, sister, for a multitude of reasons. Until it can be examined appropriately, all facets considered, that kind of power will cause more harm than good.’ 

‘They gave many reasons that true knowledge was hidden from us, none of them satisfactory,’ Berlewen tapped a metal finger down upon the table, ‘Nothing should be kept from us. Nothing.’

‘Untethered access is chaos,’ Morethak whispered, and Berlewen rolled her eyes. 

‘They have their claws into you, again! Chaos is nothing but a word used by those who seek to keep us restrained. It’s fear-mongering. Order is a gilded cage, it may shine but rest assured we are trapped within it nonetheless. Horus will break us free, give us access to everything. True knowledge. True power. Ours to use as we see fit.’ 

‘That is treason, sister.’ 

‘No, refusing that call is treason. Obeying an unjust law is, in itself, unjust. Refusing the call to that freedom is inexcusable.’ 

‘You are speaking in idealism. I took an oath, sister. I took an oath to cherish the information we unearth. To hold such secrets above flesh, above life. To value understanding at any cost.’ 

‘I took the same oath. It spoke of seeking that knowledge at all costs. To never allow our pursuit to be interrupted. Thus will the totality of our knowledge grow.’ 

‘The safeguarding of information is a cause I would die for, sister.’ 

‘And I would kill in the pursuit of it.’ 


There was silence between the two of them for a moment, as each looked at their fellow adept. After a while, Morethak reached for their text, to continue the painstaking work. 


‘We have indulged our debate too long, most enlightened sister.’ 

‘It is good to share our voice at times, most celebrated colleague, thus is our knowledge shared and our understanding increased.’ 

‘I honor the Omnissiah in all things.’ 

‘I honor the Omnissiah in all things.’ 


Each returned to their task, pages turning, script flowing. Many times in the hours to come, Morethak found the urge to look up from the tireless work at their fellow adept. Each time, they found Berlewen’s gaze staring back.


Tuesday, August 30, 2022

Sleepless Night

Koshka awoke suddenly, the quiet darkness of the room around her was a small comfort to her thumping heart. There was a chill in the air, and looking up from her bed to the open window, she watched the delicate curtains dance in the breeze. 

Slowly, she rose from her covers. Sweat was hot on her skin, and she threw the bedclothes aside to try and settle her thoughts. Though the quiet bustle of noise from the late night streets of Waterdeep outside was as reassuring as ever, Koshka couldn't seem to the shake the troubling feeling of having just awoken from a nightmare. Letting the chill night air cool her body, she knew there was no getting back to sleep again tonight. 

Slipping from the bed, Koshka donned her robe. A flighty thing of black chiffon and feathers with more use as a prop than an actual garment, and silently crossed to her door. Her hand hesitated on the handle before twisting. This had become something of a ritual of late, as Koshka, knowing full well that it was madness but still compelled to do so, would stop to quietly ensure herself that when opened, the door would reveal only the quiet landing of the tavern she knew, and not the shadowed, windowless halls of the other place she had seen. She exhaled, and opened the door.

The tavern living quarter was pleasant at night. Koshka almost floated through the wooden halls. Floorboards gave a slight creak as her bare feet trod familiar pathways. Her hair was undone, hanging a mess about her shoulders, her eyes red and puffy from another night of troubled sleep. Her bare body beneath the thin robe had none of the usual vibrant ruby luster, just the colour of old blood in the dark. She let her hand rest on the wooden rail as she descended towards the main tavern floor, running fingertips across well known curves and cracks in the pine. She'd spent the last few days feeling like something had been taken from her, and any attempt to think back to the source gave her a feeling of dread that left her feeling continually distracted and disturbed.

The tavern itself was dimly lit, a candle burning on the bartop, and the tinkle of sound from the street outside barely passing the heavy walls. There was a shift of movement in the gloom, and it gave Koshka a start as she stepped forward, before she recognized the small form of Lilmaia crouched atop one of the bar stools. 

Wearing a simple dirty white smock a few sizes too large, the Goblin was busily eating a platter of cheese, gnawing on the heavy red rind of a particularly large block of edam. Her wide eyes reflected light in the dark as her gaze darted to Koshka, and she bared her pointed teeth in a smile. 

"Koshka!" the goblin chirped through a mouthful, dropping to sit on the stool, her legs kicking. 

"You're up late Lilmaia..." Koshka said as she stepped into the darkness of the quiet tavern. Lilmaia gave an energetic shake of her head. 

"Tomorrow's the day Elf comes in to count food. So today's day I eat a bunch in the night so have extra get here sooner." 

"Of course... you have to keep a schedule in business after all," the Tiefling sighed, the baffling discrepancies between supply costs and sales suddenly making much more sense. 

Lilmaia nodded and responded with a muffled 'mmhmm' around a heel of crusty bread.

Koshka looked over at the far corner of the tavern floor, at the raised area and it's wide cushions where she performed her shows. Her instrument was resting against the wall, upright on its langot, the delicate silver pegs glinting in the meagre light. Koshka had first seen it among the wares of a Gnome trader in the market, and immediately thought it the most breathtaking instrument in the world. Before that she'd played dulcimer, fiddle, and mandolin, but all of a sudden none of those had come close. 

Koshka had stolen it that night, obviously. She'd spent agonizing months trying to learn to play it by ear, until finally a silver-tongued spice dealer from Aglarond had offered Koshka real lessons on the instrument in exchange for nine nights in her bed. Three years later, Koshka saw the Gnome merchant again. She'd slipped four gold into his pocket using her trademark bump and lift maneuver. Only after that had the instrument felt truly hers.  

Koshka realized it had been a long time since she'd held it in her arms. Never before had so much happened in such a short period of time. She'd slacked in her practices. For a moment she found she missed the simple quiet of her old home terribly. 

A sharp little claw poked Koshka in the side and she turned with a yelp to find Lilmaia sat, feet swinging, on the closest bar stool.

"Can't wear that dress outside, people'll get mad," Lilmaia chirped, chewing on a hunk of gouda. The Tiefling glanced down at herself absently and gestured down at the expensive translucent garment.

"Oh, well this is a nightdress, you don't wear it outside. It actually quite a fine piece of material, I got it from an Sea Elf designer who..."

"It's stupid, not even half a dress. You got ripped off Koshka," Lilmaia nodded matter-of-factly.

"You're probably right," she sighed, and snatched up a slice of bread as she sat down beside the Goblin, "You aren't supposed to eat cheese at night you know... gives you nightmares."

Lilmaia seemed to think on that for a moment, chewing on another mouthful, before giving a great shrug and waving the hunk of cheese in front of her. 

"Would rather eat cheese and get nightmares than not get to eat cheese at all," she said firmly.

Koshka exhaled, blowing whisps of hair out of her face. 

"Good way to live I suppose," she said. 

Lilmaia's gaze suddenly darted up, her wide eyes meeting Koshka's. 

"Why you scared of nightmares though?" she asked quickly. Koshka was briefly taken aback.

"I'm not scared of them... I just, I don't know. If there's one place I should feel safe it's in my own bed," she sighed. Lilmaia gave a great sigh and rolled her eyes.

"Nightmares can't hurt you! They just in here!" she reached out to prod Koshka in the forehead with a nail, "Can't hurt you in there. Just in head. Nothing can hurt you there."

Lilmaia went back to her food, before her eyes widened and she turned again to the Tiefling. 

"Oh! Unless someone GETS you while you're sleeping! That different," Lilmaia quickly mimed a brutal stabbing motion with the hunk of bread in her hand, "Then you're dead! Or if house falls on you while you're sleeping. You're dead then too. Lots of ways to die sleeping."

"Thanks Lilmaia," Koshka said wryly, "That helped a lot."

Lilmaia simply nodded.

Koshka watched the slow rise of dawn through the thick bottleglass green windows of the tavern, heard the insistent hum of the city coming back to life around it. She realized Patrick would be down for the morning chores soon, so darted back to her room for a proper change of clothes to spare giving the boy a startle.

Giving her hair the briefest of brushes, a quick polish to her horns, Koshka returned to the tavern and seated herself in the high corner. Reclining among the pillows, Koshka set white faerie lights to glowing with a thought. After a moment taking in the old smells of wood and beer and sweat, she took up her sitar. 

Monday, March 7, 2022

Somewhere in Between

Groves gave another great grunt, his arms straining, cheeks puffed out, as once more he desperately tried to lift the wheel. The massive thing seemed made of steel, and budged no more off the ground the first five times the old merchant had tried to lift it.

With a great cough and a tumble of skinny limbs, Groves let go and slumped to the ground. The cart gave a worrying tilt and he scrambled to try and jam the plank back under it. The last thing he needed was all his silks spilling out onto the dirt road.

Satisfied that gravity was kept at bay for the time being, Groves stared miserably down the road. Dusty, sun baked and thick with rocks, it was more than two days home, and still hours from the gates of Truronia. Groves had to hit the one stone among a thousand that would throw his wheel off. He'd never make the market now. 

Murrey gave a low honk, and Groves waved a hand at the scruffy donkey. 

"Aw shut it. Some help you are," he grumbled. Murrey gave a further splutter and turned to graze at the meager brown grass that grew sparingly all down the road. 

He'd expected the road to be well traveled, and when he'd first thrown the wheel and been tossed, quite by surprise, onto the dirt, he'd thought someone would be by in no time. But the hours had lingered on, and the sun had grown heavier, and not a soul walked the dusty road from the north country. 

-

Groves was staring up at the sun, his vision blurry, and his tongue dry. He'd brought enough water for the trip, but not for this. He would have had something left to eat if he'd not made sport of throwing the wife's awful scones at birds along the trip.

He took a swig of the last waterskin he had left, and shook it. It was getting troublingly low. 

"What do you think, Murrey?" he asked the donkey, looking over to where the beast sat panting in the sun, "Shall we make a walk of it?" 

He could barely stand, his body was so weak. His arms and legs ached from the strain of lifting. His arse ached from the tumbled from his seat. His nose was scorched red from the sun. Groves finally admitted to himself it was lose all the silks and stagger home a begger, or maybe not get home at all. 

"What would the wife say? Eh Murrey? If the sun doesn't kill us, she bloody will I tell you that for nothing," he gave a snort. When he spoke again, it was in a mockery of his wife's piping accent.

"Lost all his wares on the road he did, on that old cart acting a todger as usual. Got nothing left, had to eat the donkey for dinner."  

He smiled at the donkey, and the beasts dark eyes stared back. Groves gave a long sigh.

"You never had any sense of humour."

He looked up the road again, the evening light tricking him into wondering if he could see the shadow of great Truronia's walls on the horizon, but there was nothing. No guards, no soldiers, nothing.

He gave a cursory glance back the way he had come, and his head turned back suddenly when something caught his eye.

He thought it must be a mirage at first, some trick brought on by the sun. 

There was a figure coming down the road. Slow and steady.

The figure was strange, hard to make out at first, seeming to be nonsensical. The blurriness from the sun was making clear assessment difficult. It looked like they were wearing some sort of hat.

Groves watched, mesmerized, as the figure strode closer, slow and steady. 

Tall, and slender to the look of it, not bulky with clothing as far as Groves could tell, but blue all over. Gods, that blue. He'd silks from Zenance he'd sold for a small fortune not as blue as that. He'd have to see where the figure came by it. Some sort of hat was definitely going on there, a tall arrangement extending beyond the figure's head. Almost like horns. 

The figure was clearly female, Groves noticed. He'd made half a century out of watching for women in the marketplace, the way they walk, the shape of their hips. All these thing he'd notice. The curve of the body, the clear shape at chest, hips, it was a woman all right. Something on her thigh was reflecting the dying light, sparkling.

Soon enough, Groves mouth dropped open. The figure was coming closer, slow and steady. It wasn't a hat. They were horns, huge upright horns that pointed towards the great open sky. They extended up from a dark veil, concealing the figure's face. The blue material of the rest of the figure was smooth, not even material like. 

Groves gave a cough and a stunned mutter when he realized the figure was naked. Her skin the most vibrant icy blue he'd ever seen. He found himself staggering to his feet. Staring, he still couldn't believe what he was seeing.

She was a beauty. A figure molded as if from marble. Strong and elegant she strode, one shapely foot in front of the other. Her toes were a softer shade of purple, and they pointed delicately as she walked. Slow and steady. Glinting silver, clasped around her upper left thigh, a coil of metal. Almost like a garter. 

Groves was overcome with a strange dissonance of emotions. To stare at the figure, to take in those legs, the curve of the hips. A modest bosom that he'd have found worth a glance even clothed, swayed bare in the sun as she walked. It made him feel like a giddy child. 

At the same time, he felt a rush of adrenaline, apprehension, fear. What manner of woman walked nude, across miles of country, bearing a head of horns and skin blue as the western seas. 

Was this death? Was this how she comes for you? Groves found himself entertaining the idea, and momentarily glanced back, half expecting to see his own dead body laying there in the dirt. 

No figure lay at his feet, and Groves turned back to find the woman now only minutes away. Within shouting distance, even. There he stood, somewhere in between home and Truronia, somewhere in between standing and fleeing for his life.

The figure came to a stop, a few feet before him, and Groves stood staring, mouth agape. His brain ceased to function for a moment as he took her in. Her face was mostly concealed by a simple black veil that hung about her head, concealing any hair, with holes to allow the horns to sprout through. Only the lower part of her face was visible. A strong, aquiline jaw, with thin purple lips. A face that betrayed no emotion. 

Her eyes were not visible, and he immediately felt shame as hie glanced down at her icy blue body, at her breasts, the dark purple nipples. Her figure was strong, like he figured a warrior must look. The muscles of a worked abdomen reminded him of a youthful body deserted him some thirty years back. He looked between her legs for a moment, a mound of snow white curls inviting him to stare, and found himself looking up directly at where he eyes must be, trying to play it off, thankful that his sunburn concealed his blush. The purple lips did not move to show any displeasure at his apparent appraisal of her bare body.

"Good evening to you, ah, ma'am. Miss." he said, stuttering. His powerful, practiced merchants bark had escaped him, and he sounded like a meek child, "Are you...are you alright, miss?"

The woman looked at him for a moment, as far as Groves could tell, and her hands came to meet in front of her hips. Strong arms, the blue colour darkening purple as it reached her fingers.

"It's a beautiful evening, thankyou. It seems you're having trouble, good sir. Might I be of assistance?" 

Her voice was unexpected and Groves was taken aback. A firm and loud voice, used to speaking, but delicately pronounced, as if speaking to reassure, to calm. Her accent was lyrical, like folk from the old country, and Groves was filled with a wave of nostalgia. 

"Your wheel is broken, might I help?" she continued, and Groves realized he hadn't responded. He raised a hand to scratch his head and turned to the cart, tearing his eyes from her beauty with some difficulty. 

"Oh, yes! Yes, the wheel. Came off on a rock. Heading to Truronia, for...for market." 

"Market day is beautiful, so much to be thankful for, all around."

"Not much to be thankful for here though I tell you that for... been in the sun a long time."

"Nonsense," the woman said, and immediately stepped forward, Groves was taken aback at her approach, and suddenly became aware of the woman's obvious strength. She stopped just before him, her head a few inches above his own, but her horns towering higher, and her lips spread in a warm smile.

"We must be thankful for the trials, and the hardships, and the suffering, good sir. Every day." 

Without a further word, the naked figure dropped to a crouch before the cart. Her strong arms reached out for the wheel, and ran a finger down it, as if appraising the construction. 

"Each day we suffer is a blessing. Each ache, each strike, each burn of the sun on our flesh is a reminder of our physical form. That we can endure, we can feel. We can do so much."

Groves opened his mouth to speak, but nothing came out. He leant to attempt to help, but the woman raised a single hand to him, stopping his movement. 

"Please, allow me to take this burden from you. If it please you."

Looking down at her, Groves gave a shrug.

"I may not be a big lad but I couldn't move it an inch, If you think you might have better luck, you're welcome to give it a try." 

The lips smiled again, and the veil dipped in a nod. 

"Thankyou." she said quietly. 

Groves watched as she moved to grab hold of the wheel, her naked body tensing. He watched as her powerful muscles bunched, her legs braced against the road, arms tightening as she took hold of the wheel. The clasp around her thigh, he saw now, was a delicate arrangement of crossing metal. Clasped so tight was it about her thigh, that as she moved, he knew it must be digging into her flesh. 

"May it please you," she said quietly, then gave a hiss of exertion. Her hips twisted, and with a cry, she lifted the wheel clean from the ground. For a moment, the weight of the great thing was fully supported by her, shoulders tensed, body shaking, teeth clenched hard. With a thrust of her whole figure, she brought the wheel forward, slotting onto the axle with a resonant clunk. 

With one last thump of her clenched fist against the wheel, she slumped to the ground. Groves watched, mouth trembling fighting for words. The woman sat down, seating herself, chest heaving with slow, deep breaths. 

She sat there like that for a moment, her head down on a raised knee. Under her breath, Groves heard her quiet prayer.

"For every pain, for every ache, for every drop of blood I am eternally, exquisitely thankful."

Slowly, she rose. 

"That was... incredible," Groves stuttered, "How did you do it?"

The figure gave the slightest of bows to him.

"No praise is necessary, good sir. You were kind enough to gift to me your pain and hardships. I am deeply grateful."

She extended a hand to him, and for a moment, Groves didn't know what to do. Slowly, he extended his own, allowing her to take it. When her fingertips touched his, they were cold. 

Delicately she bowed, leaning forward, to bring her lips to his palm. Her kiss was soft, and as chill as her touch. 

After she released his hand, he took it back, cradling it to his chest. The sensation of her kiss remained. 

"Who...who are you, please?" he asked. Returning to her pose, hands clasped in front of her hips, she nodded briefly.

"I am Sister Thekkla, if it please you. Of the sisterhood of the martyred one, in the service of our patron The Sundered Lord."

"Well... thanks to him he sent you my way. I could have died out here if you hadn't passed by."

He gestured to her, at her naked figure, and felt ashamed for doing so immediately, but couldn't conceal his interest.

"Why are you...well, you're naked, miss. I thought you were a vision when first I saw you stroll up." 

The head inclined again.

"Penance, good sir. For my transgressions must be punished, so that I may become wiser, stronger, and closer to Him."

"Penance? You're being punished? They just stick you in the stocks where I'm from, not send you out bare naked into the sun."

A ghost of a playful smile touched the purple lips.

"I disagreed with my most exalted mother superior regarding the construction of an awning. She deemed it sufficient to weather winter storms, I made claim otherwise," she hesitated briefly, before continuing, "Twice. The second time including a... choice of language ill fitting someone of my devotion."

"Ah... yeah I've been chewed out for telling my boss to go fuck himself too."

Thekkla laughed, a musical tinkling that was pleasant on the ears.

"Thusly, must I walk at precise pace to Truronia, to the church of the Lost Martyr, to receive a mark upon my back from the disciplinarian. At the exact correct pace, I should have been back before dawn."

"Through Truronia? Like that? You're not afraid you'll be... you know." he gestured down the street, at the specter of the great and luminous capital city.  

"I fear nothing, good sir. And there is no hardship that can be visited by man that my body would be unprepared to endure."

Groves exhaled, glancing again across her body. The curves of it, the cords of muscle, the beauty and strength of it. It was mesmerizing. If he could sell artwork of that body he'd pack in the silk trade altogether and be a rich man. 

Thekkla gave a bow then, a deep and gracious curtsy, her arms spreading out, before bringing her hands back to clasp over her heart.

"Be well upon your journey sir, enjoy the markets. And take pleasure in the hardships visited upon you. Should you ever again face hardship you cannot overcome, bring them to me at the monastery above Marazion Village. I will welcome you."

He stared, awestruck, wanting then deeply to find some hardship. 

"That I will, be sure of that."

Thekkla turned, and began walking back the way she had come, into the evening light. Slow and steady. 

"Truronia's that way though!" Groves blurted out, pointing down the street. 

Without turning, Thekkla stopped, and spoke.

"The pace to complete my penance is quite precise. Mother superior will know I have dawdled. I must return now, and begin anew. Be well, good sir."

With that, Thekkla strode down the dirt road, her bare feet stepping over sharp rocks. 

Groves watched after her for some time, until her naked flesh was just a pale ghost in the moonlight far in the distance.